Tuesday, April 24, 2012
so it's been really rough lately. i have landed myself back into the hospital again, which some would say is what i wanted; i would have to disagree. i'm miserable. my whole family is angry and pulling away from me, my friends are starting to ditch me, i'm losing more than just weight. it just really sucks. there are students here that are my age doing internships to become a nurse... it's embarrassing to know that they are the same age as i am and are so successful in life. sure, when i get better i can do those things too, but i will always be a little bit behind due to my eating disorder.
i woke up at 12:45am this morning worrying.. they want to send me to a psych ward and then back to treatment. i know that psych wards don't do anything good for eating disorders, so i am a little perplexed. however, i got myself into this- i need to get myself out. i would just really like some support with everything that's going on and the fear of the unknown. <3 love you all!
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You will always have my support!! Never forget that! You need to get yourself back on your feet and RUN full force toward recovery! I will always be here for you! I believe you can do this and hope that you soon realize you can. Never give up and fight your hardest!! Love ya girly!
ReplyDeleteso sorry to hear that you had to go to the hospital again. keep strong. there are students doing internships and seem to be all successful. however, everybody is struggling with something and not everything is as perfect as it seems. also, there are just as well tons of people our age doing nothing but watching TV and hanging around all day. don't beat yourself up for what you are going through. lots of love xx
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ReplyDeleteBe brave; you always have my support.
ReplyDeleteeveryone has their own timeline. I hope that one day you can see how AMAZING you are and choose to fight the ED and do great things. There is always hope. Just hold on,
ReplyDeleteIt's been a while since you posted. I hope you went to treatment and it helped! I know that I too get frustrated that other people are doing this & that and I'm behind because of this ED, but it doesn't get us anywhere to think badly of ourselves for it.
ReplyDeleteWe'll get it together.