GI issues

so i've been having major GI issues lately. i stopped taking my reglan for my gastroparisis, and i thought that was the problem. however, i have been consistently taking it now and it's still not getting better. my stomach hurts so bad it's hard to eat, drink, even walk around. it's horrible. i don't want to be admitted to the hospital again, but i seriously am scared out of my mind. what if i did this to myself?? what if my actions in my ED have caused serious damage to my intestines? we're at the beach until saturday, then we're going home. if it still hurts, i'm going to go to urgent care again. i feel so bad to be burdening my family and friends with my health issues... i want this to all be over. why can't it be? if i could have stopped this years ago this problem wouldn't be here... fml..