my heart is breaking. I never meant for this to happen.. I never wanted to lose all of my relationships and hopes and dreams. I never wanted my family to worry if I would wake up in the morning.
I'm stuck in this horrible addiction and I can't get out. I feel like the people I can now rely on are few and far in between. I feel so alienated and alone. and yes, I know I did this to myself. but it still fucking hurts. I know god has a purpose for my life but right now I don't see it. neither does anyone else. I just want to be "normal".
I want to go to school and drive and get a boyfriend and a job. I want my friends and family to not give up on me.
I don't know.. I'm just having a rainy, sad day. sorry for venting.
Don't be sorry for venting its actually good to get it out and not keep it all shoved inside! I will never give up on you! I know you are strong and one day you will be free and happy! So hold on to that and carry on! You can do this and you are soo worth it!
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