so yeah.. i don't even know where to begin. i am back at levine from randolf. not really a surprise to anyone here, but i am doing much better.
no tubes, no PPN or any of the sort.
i have been eating all of my meals and snacks as required to gain priveleges back.
it's been hard as hell, but i've been making it through.
and the facebook picture thing, well there's really nothing i can do about that now because i'm not allowed on facebook at the moment. but anyway, to all the haters out there, you're very ignorant to believe anything i'm going through is for attention.
it does suck to be back here. i feel like such a failure... i mean, i've spent over a month in hospital(s) trying to somehow maintain medical stability. it's been the hardest battle of my life.
i was only at CMC Randolf for a day and a half before i had to get sent back to levine... that really does make me pathetic.
however i could sit here and should all over myself all day long but it doesn't change anything. i'm here now and i have to do my best to get better.
so for all of you out there who think it's for attention, please back off. i really am trying to kick this ED in the ass.
screw the haters. You have a tube in your fb pic... such is life.
ReplyDeleteKeep doing what you need to do. I promise you that life outside of ED... even a little bit outside of it is FUN. Can be fun.
You have so much life to live little one. Hold on and do what you have to do to LIVE IT!
Screw anyone who said that to you! Some people just don't understand..And hang in there! trying to do the same right now..
ReplyDeleteI didn't say you were doing it for attention. I proposed that it was possible. So can I ask, why *did* you choose that as your profile picture?
ReplyDeleteI hope you saw that I wasn't being a "hater" in my comment -- I don't even know you but it was coming from a place of concern. I didn't bash you at all. You're being a little defensive about it, honestly.
P.S.: good job about eating food instead of the supplemental nutrition. That's great.
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