so far my stay here at levine has not been good. i've been getting sick all of the time, and the doctors are trying their hardest to figure out what's wrong. yesterday i had to do a barium swallow test, and today i have to have an MRI on my stomach to see what's going on. it's all really overwhelming.
what scares me the most is to think that i have done permenant damage to my body that can't be reversed. i literally CAN'T eat anymore without getting sick. i may end up having to get a PICC line to get TPN, or have my NG tube advanced and be on continuous feeds, or get a G/J tube. it's all so scary.
i never knew my eating disorder could cause all of these problems. i never thought i would end up being so sick.
some days i don't leave my bed for the entire day because i feel so horrible.
i have constant headaches that never go away unless they give me pain meds which just knock me out. i don't know.. i'm just venting. i'm horribly scared. but hopefully they'll figure something out soon. :/
I'm so sorry Erin. That sounds so, so scary. I can't even imagine how your feeling about it all. Sending lots of hugs and prayers your way.
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