Unsettling.

Sitting here, listening to music feeling sleepy, and yet I know sleep is no where near. Every sound is so intense, every move I make feels so alive. I don't know what to make of this type of sensitivity. My throat is dry, and yet I have no desire to drink anything. When I stand up to try and walk, I feel so dizzy and unsteady, but at the same time I feel so graceful and so very alive. Some people call this an escape, but at this moment, I see it more as a re-awakening, a chance to feel so alive even though in reality you are the farthest thing from it. My eye-lids feel so heavy, but they always refuse to stay shut for long. Although I feel pretty good, I still feel like there is something unsettling resting deeply inside of me. Hoesntly, it may never go away. There may not be anything strong enough to rid of it, and I guess that's okay. It's not like there is anything I can do but accept it...